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so frustrating. i cannot sleep. tv on or off, jerked off twice, made 24 new clones, its fucken 330, why cant i sleep? oh yeah i napped all effen day! DAMN IT! roommate is passed out, its freezing but not as cold as i would like. im hungry. and so so fat. like a disgusting pig in boxer briefs. i need a blunt but my account is over drawn. its so stupid. these fucks keep taking my money. i need a bank account right? i need a blunt is more like it. im gonna search for change and hopefully find enough before 4:20. shitty. all i wanna do is move to the woods and grow, then show up like twice a week to take my lady out somewhere nice til i can afford a place with her down here.  SOMEDAY…

i never really put much thought into what i would say if no one was around to hear me, i usually just keep those thoughts to myself. but my girlfriend is a firm believer in sharing hers with the internet so i think i might give it a try.

ever since i met her my life has got unbelievably more amazing and every time i let go and give a little bit more of my heart to her, theres a crazy battle, and then a calm (pan, pamn, palmn, pand…with a D?) and when that calm settles its like nothing ive ever felt before, just white light of bliss! i want to make babies with this woman, this fine fine lady! i want to spend the rest of my life with her! its so unfair that i had to suffer through all the shitholes and whores to get to where i am today. she is the bees knees!

off the subject ive been having strange pains in my arms and legs recently. i assume its because i sleep on a couch half as big as it should be, which is my fault. but i also worry that im going to have a heart attack, or a stroke. way more likely then id like to admit. i gained a ton of weight, like 40 lbs, and then started working out riding my bike. maybe loosening up some artery chunks and they will move down to my heart and kill me.

this is just the natural order of things...

i would do anything for love…EVEN THIS!