BOBAFETTHATESYOU

i am miserable without you

i was miserable when we were together and i wasn’t able to make everything perfect for you. disappointing you feels like open heart surgery while i’m awake. i wish there was a middle ground. i wish i had a balance. i just need to focus and this will all be in the past. hopefully our future will hold happiness. i keep thinking this is just a sick sick dream but i keep waking up in the same place. alone in a feeling of disgust. even worse now that i saw what casey’s shit looked like compared to mine. and he has no real experience, just didn’t fuck it up the way me and the mountaineers did. i don’t know what happened to that, just another failure for 2010. i’ll add it to the list. 

i am miserable without you.